But I can’t help feel mad.
Sure I finished and believe me I am happy that I didn’t quit…at least not today.
But placing 1st in my age group and finishing dead last shouldn’t be in the same sentence in my mind. Everyone is so proud of me, happy for me, and I just can’t seem to shake this feeling of “I won by default”
Sure there is room for improvement and I will improve with time. I have to remember this was my 1st 5K. I didn’t train. I didn’t follow a plan. I woke up, met my Team Challenge Team & Coach and just participated. ( I am the Endurance Manager, not a participant.)
Who knows when my next 5K will be, but I will have an improved time and hopefully feel better.
Lately I feel like that has been my response to many friends, families and colleagues.
I tend to think I am good at multitasking; however lately that would not be the case. I am exhausted after work, yet unable to sleep. I go over list after list in my head always afraid I am going to miss something.
Did you send me that chart? Who me
Did you pay that bill? Who me
Did you call grandma? Who me
Did you book that reservation? Who me
Tonight I am eating sushi, working, doing laundry, packing and hopefully getting a full night of sleep. Tomorrow I drive 4.5 hours to a work meeting over night. Sunday, I will call grandma, pay the bill, send the chart and maybe make the reservation.